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September 16 Pop. =]Kyahaha.
I'm Bored. Is that obvious? Perhaps, since i'm bothering to post.
Dum Dee Dum.
Here's the dreamies we took last week. Wednesday 6th September Before Open Night. August 03 -The door slammed behind her, causing a puddle of mud to disfigure itself. She hurtled through the sodden grass, unconscious of her own rapid breathing. When she finally reached the path, she couldn’t even look back, not even at her old sanctuary that she was leaving far, far behind. Rain was still pouring down when she reached the closest shelter, a small shack which seemed unoccupied. Ducking under the low door entrance, she huddled herself in the corner, using her cloak as a cover from the freezing sleet.
o.O". Copyright me?
Explaining her feelings was never an easy thing for her. Any minute now…she stood silently, mouth clenched tight. Staring straight at the figure, several metres ahead, talking to his friends, while in the canteen line. Sarah Marie sighed, that could be her one day. Her fists clenched, leaving fingernail imprints in her palm. She cancelled any thoughts of pain, pushed any thoughts of him to one side, to find them bounce back with more insistence. Today was the day. The day she would finally tell him. Was it really though?
Copyright ME again.
A still air surrounded the shallow lake. A lone figure waded through the translucent water, leaving ripples, and stirring the sand beneath her feet. Her dark, waist-length hair lay plastered to the side of her face and body, half-covering sapphire eyes that swirled into endless voids. Swiftly, she headed for the shore, reaching for her pack. Rummaging through it, she produced the murder weapon, wrapped in a handkerchief. Its hilt was covered in various runes, the cold steel glinting in the moonlight, its tip stained with blood. Human Blood. She could smell it, the sickening stench of metallic. Her nose twitched with disgust.
Copyright Me Once Again.
Dum De Dum. What crap should i fill my space up with now? -twiddles thumbs-
May 25 Story By Me And Kim [[End Of Year 7?]][[Kim wrote the blue bit. I wrote the Pink bit.]]
She had gotten no response so she huddled up in the corner.....wrapping her jumper around her from the cold. She stared at the wall and cried...tears flowing from her eyes…she took out a pocket knife and stabbed slowly into her own flesh…her tears poured out as her arm exerted red fresh blood With the blood steadily flowing out of her arm, she bit her lip and struggled to fight the oncoming darkness surrounding her. She grew weaker and weaker as time passed she cried a thousand tears of pain and suffering…the pain almost unbearable as the knife slid half way up her arm . Feeling weak and useless she dropped the knife and sat down on the blood spread floor. She looked up at the low roof of the cubicle and cried; her arm lying there, hopeless, useless and in pain. She could feel her life slipping away, like sand falling from one's hand. Painfully she leant back against the wall, her eyes threatening to close. Struggling with the pain and depression, she forced her head and looked around her for one last time, her life, flashing before her eyes seeing her parents, weak with hunger she saw it all, her brother standing in the kitchen with a gun pointed towards his head his mother groaning with hunger weeping hopelessly her father sitting in the lounge, already dead and pale….this was her life and this is how she was going to end it. With those images embedded in her mind. She stopped her struggling eyes from opening and her mind faded away like a cloud, whisked across the sky. The last thing she saw was the mirror, the reflection of her pale, beaten face. Her dark, lank brown hair, plastered to her face. Her cheeks red from crying, scrunched in pain. That was all she was ever going to see, in this harsh cruel place she called her home. With a final sob, she closed her eyes forever… =\ ="[ =[ _________________________________________________________________________
Have A Nice Day!!
<33 [[Lozz]] May 16 Four pages of True Fcking Sht. X__XHere you go. Read. First i was writing a story. Then turned into. Who knows what it turned into… Just thoughts in my head. ___________________________________________________________________________
Crying Tears of Love, Tragedy and Heart Break. Would Letting go help? Or just bring everything i hoped, dreamed about, crashing down on my head. Am I trying to forget, forget all my memories and watching from afar as he poured all his love and affection into another girl. Another Lucky girl. Why is it that every guy you meet, that you consider and option only has eyes for everyone else but you? Why is it that when you like a guy, someone else likes him or the guy’s best friend likes you, putting that special guy out of your reach forever? And when you search for answers, the reply is insufficient or non-existent. Who will be the one who will save me from myself, who will be the one? Is anybody out there? Does Anyone see me for who I am, for who i am inside? Behind this mask. Will anyone want to see? Or will the outcome be too tragic, overflowing with self pity? And false hope for 'the one'. I once dreamt that we were destiny even. How wrong was I? But then came the day. Yea cool. He asked out my best friend. How lucky am I. Right?! First I was SURE she was joking. The reality actually dawned on me. But how could i cry, over the same guy, over and over again? What personal gain is there? None. So now i could even possibly consider liking another. But the first guy that i had EVER liked properly.
-, - or even - from primary etc. They don’t count. But he brought opportunities that i refused to believe. I had refused to see what was there. So now I’m drowning in regret. Why hadn’t i even done anything? Just leaving him to fend for himself. Unrequited love. Just like Shakespeare. Why?!?! What was wrong with me? How had i not believe the truth. Instead of seeing the clear beauty of it, i saw disbelief of my situation. I pushed him away and ignored him for WHAT reason? Was I too shy, too self-absorbed. I was well aware of what was happening. But I didn’t stand up for myself when - told him what he wanted to hear. Why wasn’t i honest, revealing my true intentions. Because i couldn't accept the thought of him not being there, the thought of ruining people's dreams, the thought of that lack of attention. But i did ruin all his dreams, which turned around later and ruined mine too. But did i care when i wrecked his future??? Wasn't i just thinking about myself. Thinking less about others as usual. But why would i care then. Why would it matter to me back then? How do I know? Why do i even fcking care? I don’t even know why I’m doing this. That’s why writing stuff down is the best. No one seriously knows how I’m fcking feeling.
Maybe cause i won’t tell them anyway. Yea. Blah blah blah. Of COURSE they do. Sure. NOT!! Like f*cking Hell. What am i even feeling anyway? Loud Music is a relief. A sanctuary. Well ONE anyway. [[insert removed paragraph here]] . But its not her fault. Cant be anyway. Because it’s all mine, Yup, I'll accept that I’m sorry for my million mistakes. But will anyone else accept the truth? The truth of what they've done. Wouldn't that be against some sort of law? Some sort of something people are made not to accept. But no one can change that, Could they? But would we backstab our friends? Who've been there for us when we needed them most? When we needed their support, their advice and them just being there for us to lean on and when we need help for whatever reason.
But then again, what else are we supposed to do about it? Who can help without being dragged into it as well? Oh yeah and like not like I would even let anyone know about this. All they know is what i show. So show them the happy *cough* side of me and will they be satisfied? Believe the lies. Yea, depends what they want to believe. Some may enquire into it and delve about it more than others but I won’t tell them anyway. But let me see. How am I supposed to act? How? You tell me. I can’t act any different than the person they know me as; they won’t believe what I tell them. Who really knows the truth? Do I even know the truth about myself? * sigh* “You’re better off alone. Stop lying to yourself. Who cares what I said. I regret what you know. But it’s all a waste of time.” Somewhat strange ‘ey? As long as it indicates what I want it to. Hmm. If someone asks? What to Say: The truth or lies? Why should they care//want to know what’s wrong. Is this just a phrase I’m, going through or what? Does everyone do this? Who knows? “Are you ok?” ________________________________________________________________________________________ Sorry everyone for being such a bitch today. X__X not in a good mood since yester. + This is non edited except for the removed paragraph. Dont ask. and also i actually wrote f*ck but it wont let me publish it with that XDD. Have A Nice Day!! [[if you can. X__X.]] <33 [[Lozz]] May 14 ^^.Hmm. Let's start from Thursday? Woke up Early for Hockey Training. Got there like 7:30. Waited at school for liek 10 mins for Nat, then crossed road to Training. Nat came like 20 mins later. Finished Training at like 8:20. Went to lowers and sat in the middle with tash.
Xtinur came with my Easy-way. Except for the fact that she left it in the freezer overnight a[k]a FROZEN mango blended ice with SHRIVELED raninbow Jelly. ^^. Gave some to Daph, Same, Alex, Caroline, Random Year 7 and myself. =]. Got changed, Went to Double Science.
Volunteered to go get soil to waste time. Took Coby and Jenny with me. 'Ran' away from Coby since she hadta go get her camera. Spent one whole period getting soil on lowers since mrs sheirlaw kept telling us to move in case a year 7 hit us with a javelin. XDD.
Finally got one WHOLE 10L bucket full using the Gangsta Four spoon. ^^. Found this hollow in a tree. Had a Dog bowl and like something else there. Put a random 'Rexona. For Men' [[lmfao]] Roll-On thing inside the bowl in case the 'person' came back and got sweaty cause they could use it. ^^ The Time we got back, Everyone had just about finished doing their experiments. X__X. Did ours and wasted like more time doing nothing.
Ms Bray was like: "Girls, where did you get your soil from?"
Me: "Umm.."
Coby and Jenny: "At the lowers."
Bray: "Mmm. This is GOOD soil girls. Very Good. *smiles to herself and walks away, while muttering about how good the soil was.*
*Me, Coby and Jenny look at each other and start cracking up*
Went to English. Got our English Play assignment things, due this tues!! X__X. So little time cause we were supposed to get them tuesday but she 'forgot'. Went to E6 with my group a[k]a Coby and Jenny again. Mucked around and drew diagrams of Hurstville [[Westfield]] on the tables. [[oops. ^^]] And of the Kernels shop near Coles etc etc. While 'someone' *cough* was writing on the board "Gangsta Four For life!! Dory Sakura Gwen." Ms Jukic Walked past and told us to stop wasting time.
Did absolutely nothing till like 10:45. Went to C5 to type up some of the scrpt. Some of 8EN4 were there. Me and Jenny got distracted by some video some yr 10's [[thought it was Fooey and 2 other randoms but turned out to be year 10's. oops again. ^^]] were watching about this azn guy and how azn's were worse off in getting chicks. XDD WATCH IT!! SO FUNNY!! But its on the G [[or is it I?]] Drive. So ill get it and send to some people.
It finished so we went back to the comp, in which Coby was sitting at it by herself. Sozzy!! XDD. Typed up some and sent it back to our hotmail emails.
Can't Remember what i did at recess. But after we had double DT computer with mrs//ms...GUESS WHO!??! LIL'S FAV TEACHER!!!! CHULATUNGA!!!! XDD LMFAO it was so funny. ^^. I finsihed my micros. excel thing and sent it to Alex and Jenny to copy. Lolz. Played games? and listened to music for the rest.
Went to Lunch.
Few Things.
~ Laura Toren's Bag.
~ No Ball games [[This INCLUDES certain green year 7 frisbees]] on the lowers.
~ "I'm a tree!!" Can i stalk you? =P
Double Maths. Maths test. lotsa gum =]. Geo. Home.
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Friday. Cant remember.
Double Geo- Nothing exciting.
Year Meeting- Study Skills.
Recess- Boring and Wet.
English- Cant remember. Maybe we did the bludging on friday. X__X *totally clueless what day that was*
Maths- STILL haven't go protactor from Mr Hulme yet. Even though he said countless times he'd go get it. But came back with like nothing and then told me he forgot again [[happened a LOT of times]]
Lunch- Not Much. Besides Kim and Gen wasting our time with a 'story.' ^^
Latin- Boring. Bludge but much dicussion ^^.
Science- who knows what we did? i dont ^^.
Music- Stupid teacher. Making Us sing Penny Lane when we only just photocopied music and we only had one page and no idea how to sing it like in tune. X__X. Making Coby stay until Coby found the CD that GRACE was supposed to return.
Train- ^^. Fun. Well kinda since i had xtinur's mp3 again. XDD
May 10 Jenolan Caves. 8EN2 & 8EN4. Wednesday 10th May. 2006 =]wow. so much to write but suffering from lack of memory.
Woke up 5:30. Got ready in surprisingly 15 mins. Dad drove me to school. Was actually day by the time we got there, approx. 6:25am. Cath and Nicole were already there. Mandy came and we got on the DOUBLE DECKER bus. XDD. Boring bus ride to stratty station. Lil, Kim, Steen and Mish etc. Got on. Waited half an hour for Mali and Svenja. About 9:40 when they came? Drove to 'The Edge' Cinema place. Filled in some of stupid worksheet. See Anaa!! I'm a good girl. XPP NOT!! Anyway. Got there and stole alex's nano.
The place was like dead and Alex started wondering if we had broken in or something. People started coming and we went in. CBF buying popcorn. Crappy Music in Movie. The 'Guy' was actually a girl. How strange. Wait. The Shim was a strange. Kim kept scabbing Lil's corn thingys to share with me. =]. Kim ATTEMPTED sleeping exactly 2 mins before the film ended. Got out. Back on the Bus at 9:45am. Windy bus trip to Jenolan Caves. Leila got sick. Lynda? [[not Linda 'ANG' XDD]] got sick. Maybe cause they sat on the top bit. Arrived there like out of schedule.
Took this fat walk down a like valley thing? Fun moving Bridges. =]. really stupid since we were in the front group thing. Leila came running teling us that we went too far nd everyone else stopped like 500 metres ago. Walked all the way back up, the same way to get out. So tiring and boring. Ate lunch, Cath commenting about my sandwich crumbs that would start attracting parrots. Which it did lolz. Mel, Steen and Me heaping chips with like 30896306294kg of chicken salt. Ms//Mrs//Whatever Morrison took a photo of everyone near the sign? But then she became picky by making people go colour-co ordinatedly etc. So we left and went to the bus to put lunchboxes inside.
The bus driver supposedly waited at the bus for like half an hour to open the bus to put stuff inside. We came somewhat later? And waited there for a while, until Mr Pretty told us he had gone for lunch.
Walked through Jenola Caves, the Lucas Caves to be exact. X__X. kinda cool//funny//strange. Got bus back home and after people got off at stratty. Me, Coby and Mandy all went high. [[Includes singing liek a drunk to the radio, using a certain plastic fork as a mike, me pronoucing shop names with a american accent, taking photos of random ads.
meh cbb to type more.
Have a Nice Day!!
<33 [[Lozz]] May 09 dot dot dot a[k]a ...Today was Average? Came early for violin. Got Stuck in some sort of traffic Jam but was ok. Got to school at 8:05. Meh. Went Lowers at 8:30. Suprisingly no one was there yet. Xtinur came with NO easyway a[k]a Mango Blended Ice with Rainbow Jelly. X__X Lolz. Others came. Talked. Listened to mp3, ipods etc. Bell Rang. Waited for Alex and we went up to Geo. Fun Fun Fun. Got a look at a FAT worksheet for tomorrow when we go on excur to Jenola Caves. Weeeeee. Gonna be sitting next to Long-Lost Twin a[k]a Nicole.
Missing out on:
-Non-Scripture [[NO!! Poor Xtinur. But She'll have Wendy and Alice]]
-Maths [[DAMN!! NO MR HULME a[k]a gridbook? why's he called gridbook anyway. Stupid 'Salami'. XDD
-Science [[Yay! No more long explanations on plant crap//looking at microscopic things whcih look like eyes.]]
-Recess [[NO!! no more bets with kimmeh (see Lunch). No more 'discussing'. XDD]]
-Music [[WEEE!!! I havent had music since last wednesday lolz.]]
-P.D.H.P.E [[w00tage!! No dunlavie.]]
-Lunch [[NO!! No more bets with kimmeh (see Recess). No More 'Discussing' (See Recess). No more buygin choc and going high. No more threat of kookaburra shit but. XDD
-P.E [[NO!!! My fav subject!! X____X Oh well. No more lazy Ghitgos. And she STILL hasn't told us hwo to say her name.]]
-Latin [[AIYA!! Oh wait. That's good cause the rest of 8LA have the bitchy, fcked up teacher, who lectured me about how getting my violin//going to my locker, counts as bludging class and that she was gonna report me and Linda to Ms Varady. o.o Stupid fcked up lady.]]
-Train Ride Home. [[NO!! No teasing Brigitte about Botox//Botong and Kit-Man!! Damn That. And no seeing shift eye girl. a[k]a S.E.G]]
Oh well. Anyway on with my day. Watched Video about Blue Mountains. WASTE OF TIME!?!? And saw 8En1 comingouta drama with Mrs Surbey. Gen, Sam, Wendy and Yang were telling people about how Mrs Surbey showed them her pregant tummy. X__X like Wtf? What teacher scars their classes eyes like that?! lolz. Then we had drama. BORING! Making poems. Pfft. Luckily She didnt show us her tummy or i'd have screamed.
Had..Maths next? Really stupid. And i wrote neatly in my book for the first time in ages. Bell rang for recess so got out and changed. Walked to Centenial Park with Rita, listening to her mp3.
Got there. Ran with Shimii, Veina and Sahana. Lost Sahana and Veina somewhere so some-what ran with Haney. [[YAY!! haney, the most POPULAR girl. *cough* but she's actually nice. I have weird opinions about people. Like most people dont like someone, then i get to know the person and they're actually nice XDD]]
Anyway, Came 8th. Happy about that. Veina came 9th. Shimii came 14th. Random Yr 7 came 1st. Maddy came 2nd. Mini J came 6th. Someonme told me that they came 5th but cant remember who. In the 14's, Elly came 2nd. Cant remember the rest.
Walked back to school. Changed back into school uni. Ate lunch at lockers//lowers. Xtinur and Steen went to change. I went canteen with Rita to buy food cause i was still hungry. Saw Xtinur who was looking for Steen's 'Lost' Shoes. Xtinur found them and gave them back to Steen. Bell went.
Trudged up to Textiles. Did interfacing and overlocked sides. Practically Finished skirt. Just have to do Hem then I'm finished.
Went to English, watched crappy video about 'Much Ado About Nothing'. Title's pretty self-explanitory [[spelling?]]. Ran out door with Jenny when bell went. Waited a bit near buses. Caught it With Gen, Kimmeh, Rita and Sophie. Waited at Central for a bit. Got free 'invite' to random's party. Nar. It was just her speech and she gave it out, pretending it was party invites. Shoved mine into "Australia Post" letterbox. Rita gave hers to Vince. Dont know what Gen and Kimmeh did to theirs. Left about 5 minutes later.
Got to platform 24//25. Waited for Mandy with Brigitte. Walked down platform with mandy. Train came. Couldn't decide which carriage to get on. Ended up running to the other end. Mandy got on two doors behind me. Stayed in Carriage till Kogarah then moved one door up to Brigitte, Vivien, Bekky and Kritty. Vivien, Bekky and Kritty got off Hurstville. Brig got off Penshurst. Leaned against train pole to Sutho. Decided to sit on train floor. Cherry came. Talked to her till she got off at Gymea. Sat on seat this time. Got off Woolooware.
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Have a Nice Day!!
<33 [[Lozz]]
May 02 Let Me Tell You A Story =]. I Didnt Write It But Its Kool.The story has pictures but i cant exactly drawn them so look youself//borrow the book =P. Lolz im also kinda sorry since the story is so fcking long. But its good in meaning.
The Peril of Magnificent Love. [Extracted some parts from this]]
By Emma Magenta.
The Pursuit of Divine Union can be a tricky quest.
Magenta had as her fortune, the company of exquisite companions,
A Favourite Tree,
and a passion for break dancing.
So one can forgive her naive assumption that despite his penchant for wearing bad shoes,
his arrival in her life was a promise of further joy.
In his warm hands she found the key of infinite bliss while the beauty of his countenance promised a life of eternual rapture.
Overcome by these new delights, she made invocation of gratitude to the sumpreme deity for creating a situation where her biggest love, deepest secrets, and superb eccentricities were soon to be understood by a perfect other.
In response to her praise, a victorious big-band trumpet mysteriously sounded,
as she saw in his eyes a brilliant signal for a completly new world to which she happily absconded.
For such an adventure, she felt it only apporpriate to pack her largest suitcase with sustaining provisions, and at the very least, adorn a pair of fresh socks.
There was no room for her tree, but she'd lifted its spirts with the promise of continuous kisses on their next meeting.
After a while her big feelings for him made her grow to such enourmous proportions that she soon left herself behind.
Her friends too became obselete as companions and served only as ears to hear about this love.
This MAGNIFICENT love!
This Love was so extensive that even a small foal on holiday at the north pole knew about it and felt overwhelmed.
All things were suspended in its glittering splendour.
She longed to tell him of these exploding emotions, but suddenly she felt afraid, and to say the least, tres vulnerable [[meaning very vulnerable or something like that]].
It occured to her that maybe dancing would help.
As if by sheer serendipity, a passing stranger suggested the canadian three-step was a particulayly effective method of healing one's inner fool.
Feeling more secure in herself, she decided to wear a brave dress to see if he would notice the size of her heart.
He didnt.
Finding herself alone in the dark, she searched blindly for solace and insipiration.
After some time, she stumbled uponm the thrill of wearing gorgeous boots.
And not long after, that gentle fulfilment of patting a quail.
Feeling a little more hopeful again, she decided that new hair might effectively showcase her true feelings and inner desires.
Then again, perhaps it wouldn't.
[[picture of her looking stressed]]
In the end, she nestled into a red hunting hat and hibernated through a SELF-IMPOSED winter.
Awakening refeshed but still a little shaken, she knew that to be victorious her next move had to be flawless.
So to avoid and possible faux pas, she presented him with a box full of generous proportions containing her many different selves.
He had only make his selection.
Tres Belle.
Spontaneous.
Uber smart.
Philosophical.
Good at Dinner parties.
Deep.
Unfortunately, she failed to establish that only one selection was possible at a time,
and yet she was still victorious.
For a while at least.
Until it started.
First the inertia,
The the video nights,
The waiting for real moments together,
interspersed with betrayal,
deception
and mind games.
In the depths of the nadir, she yearned for existence unencumbered by this smorgasbord of low-fi moments.
So she ruminated through her options.
And imagined her life if she were to continue on in the same manner,
If she tried to analyse the problem in the advent of a solution,
Or perhaps if she left altogether.
Before her shadow self could take over entirely,
She took herself to a cliff top where she sang a little song to the norse god for guidance.
Within the hour, she was blessed with a moment of unprecedented clarity.
And with epic silence, She concluded that perhaps she had idealised him.
A group of familiar onlookers gathered in humble appreciation to witness her first sane thought in years.
Suddenly the life she had know prior to this romantic misadventure was imbued with the scent of possibility.
Her friends seemed funnier than she remembered.
Her tree was more charming than ever.
And everything seemed to move to the pulse of an invisible samba beat, making her swell with joy.
And with a strange sense of liberty,
She became the person she was looking for.
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Channing Tatum is soo hot!! <33
Have a Nice Day!!
<33 [[Lozz]]
Note to Mandy: I'm not leaving the group. You ijot. XD =P April 29 Today. Saturday 29th March 2006.Hmm. Nothing much today except met tash at Woolooware Station, and we walked to hockey fields. XP And we were fully laughing and cracking up about Stephen's wrong nicknames. AND i was laughing at the fact that Cloud and some other FFVII character are gay!! As in LITERALLY XTINUR!! XDDDD LMAO LMAO LMAO ;]]]]]]]
XPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP XDDD LOLZ. Anyway, was kinda in a bad mood while playing though. Fully stuffed it and my hits were fully weak. Pfft. Anyway we LOST [[X__X]] to RSL in which we've only lost once to before.
Date: Team: Score:
1-4-06 Tartans [[We Lost]] 3-0?
8-4-06 Sutherland [[Lost]] 4-0
29-4-06 RSL [[Lost]] 4-0? [[cant remember]]
So basically we've lost EVERY game this season. But meh. we got like 11 more games. Last year we won 3, lost 7 and tied 4. So kinda equal. But we'll catch up i guess.
*sigh* Nat's party tomorrow. And it just so happens i am NOT going. X__X Pfft. Stupid half yearlies and azn Parents obsessed with studying. Well maybe not all but mine are. Especially my mum. Gawd. After hockey, went home got changed//had a shower, went to cronulla.
Met up with CNPS people. Watched Ice Age 2, since Scary Movie 4 was at 2pm and Sarah B couldnt make it since she had to go at quarter to 2. Ice Age was somewhat pointless? *sigh* Waste of Money but he had voucher's so we got tickets at $6 instead of like 10? Sarah B left.
Walked around cronulla for like. 1 hour and 15 minutes? During that, we ate, bought ice creams//milkshakes, tried on some random clothes in random shop. And i saw a girl from Danebank. A quarter bestie. Well not really since she was kind of a bitch Pfft.She was fully wanna-be gangster. Bling, cuffs etc. And being a goth with all the black. Meh. Yeah then Daz went looking for sunnies and i got bored so i left. Goit home, Dad's work alarm went off so he went to go check it out. How fun. But i'm at home and extremely NOT bored. [[Guess whether im using sarcasm.]]
Channing Tatum is soo hot. <33
Have a Nice Day!!
<33 [[Lozz]]
P.S to rita. Meh. Its like reflex that i write "have a nice day" etc. on all my comments and space entries.
Update. 3.44pm Staurday 29th April 2006.
No nat. Wearing cuffs dont make you tryhard. Unless you wear FIVE up one arm and who-knows-how-many that girl had on her other arm. Pfft. Such a bitch that girl is. Yea i did see spuddy. Daz, Jordie and Sarah B too. You don't know them so nvm about that. If trainings on Tuesday as well. Then i only catch the train twice a week in the mornings. X__X And i LIKE catching the train in the mornings.
And you are NOT canceling your party unless you're doing joined with me.
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i tried to kill the pain
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[[Note: I do want to die. Maybe thats why i chose the lyrics? But no i'm not emo. Just recently i've been like this. Btw sorry Nat, I've kind of forgotten already, about scores etc.
P.S [[2.01pm Sunday 30th April]] Nat's Bday!! YAY!! Also to leisha, [[not elisha from SGHS lolz]] yesh i <33333 Glue =] and i put the 'I <333 GLUE' in Nomi's nick X] i like MAGLUE too XP heh dw. DT3//VA3,Year 8 Sydney Girls High's personal joke XDDD April 27 [[Countdown: 27 days]]27 days till go till my bday. How exciting and fun. [[Not really. Note MAJOR Sarcasm.]] Just another Birthday. I've had 12 of them already, so this is just my 13th. Probably NO party. Cant be fcked organising one. So much for my plan to have a joined one with Xtinur. Meh. Might still do. Nowhere to go that everyone hasnt already been. Cbf to have it at my place. Maybe someday later on. Hmm. I'm just in a [[=\]] mood right now. Maybe just me but.
Channing Tatum. Cristiano Ronaldo are soo hot. <33
Have a Nice Day!!
<33 [[Lozz]] April 23 =]YAY!!!!!! friday was so fun...well like only me, xtinUR, g3n and lindz went...but who cares it was fun anyway..
Firstly i was supposed to be at xtinur's place at 10:30am and meet everyone else at central. But my mum made me study for TWO HOURS!!! before i could leave..so i got at xtinur's at like 11:10 since i woke up at 8:20....started studying at 8:30 etc etc. then we got on the bus and i accid pressed the button too early so we got off TWO STOPS BEFORE [[xtinur was pissed off at me XDD heh]] then we started running and like xtinur's liek to m "...WHY ARE WE RUNNING?!??!" and im like "er...i dont know?!?!" then this random lady comes up to us and starts asking where the immigration embassy of something something is...and we had no idea and to make her leave us alone xtinur's like "Oh sorry we just came down from Darwin.." XD
We walked/ran away laughing and then we couldnt see anyone at central so we asked a security guy were the nearest pay phone was cause niether of us had any credit.. i rang lindz AND gen...both didnt pick up..then we tried 1800 reverse but you couldnt ring mobiles...so i hadta waste $15!! to buy credit..then i was about to ring linda when GEN rang..asked where we were.and they were waiting at the central bus stop..sitting down!! and we didnt see each other when we walked past. X___________X pfft what a waste of time?!?!
by then it was liek 10 to 12 so we walked to geogrge st cinema..and gen and xtinur were calling me n00b since i dont go city much..XPPPPP hmm..w2e watched "she's the man" and it was sooooo FUNNY!!! XDDDDDDDDDD and me xtinUR were fulli like "OMG NO!!!!!!!" like all the time when 'viola/sebastion' did something stupid..XDDDD but it was really good and i wanna watch it again. Then we ate lunch and walked to capitol, it was about..2:45? approx when we got there. Took 3 sets of stickies. First ones were sparkly and okiez..Second set was my fav...Third one was really f*cked up cause it had a time limit for when you had to press the button to take a pic!! X[ so we only took three pics cause of that and only got to decorate one of them.
Pfft. Anyways, it was like 4:00 and we walked back to central, said bye to gen who was ctaching a train home. Lindz, xtinur and me caught a bus and lindz stayed on the bus when me and xtinur got off at uni of nsw to return xtinur's dvds.
We returned them, payted her rent and looked at this random shop XPP then we talked about 'issues arising in our community' [[LMAO!! XDDDDDD heh i just called it that cause i felt special and felt like it]] and my mum arrived just as we got back. Hmm..i went home? and took pics of the stickies since i seriously cbb to scan them.
Yesterday was stupid and a bludge. Started my science heating house thing. Such a waste of time. X__X Now listening to my bro and his friend like obssessing over some comp game. I THINK its Fifa or something like that. Havent asked if i can go to Nat's party yet since I only read the invite like 20 minutes ago and i cbb getting out of my chair JUST YET. But probably i'm going. Depends on the mood of my mum when i ask her.
Have a nice day!!
<33 [[Lozz]] April 18 heh!!YAY!! camping at culburra beach//crookhaven heads was fun!! XDDDDDD heh but at night like i was freezing even though i was wearing my pjs, jumper and socks...X_________X and this stupid baby from this other family camped next to us...CRIED EVERY SINGLE FREAKING NIGHT!! O.O hmm...can't wait till city this friday.
To everyone thats going:
I'm 'not' going but i am....lolz i dont think that makes sense.
In other words, my mum thinks i'm going somewhere else on friday and so dont tell your parents that i'm going because if my mum finds out im gonna get busted X__X
lolz anyway, anyone wanna come easties next next friday?? like the 28th april? Well maybe uni pool as well then easties after. Me, xtina and lindz are going so if anyone else wants to come just ask me and we'll organise details etc.
Have a nice day!!
<33 [[Lozz]] April 09 YAY!!YAY!!! nobodies emo//depressed anymore! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE XD XD XD heh...hmm..nothing much happening..cept everyopne cept me, gen, kim, steen and lil went easter show!!!! XO XO but everyone's gonna tell what happened tomoz..rite?!?!? XP heh...i also want reports on my stalked victim ;] XDDDDDD heh AND I'M GOING CAMPING NXT WEEK!!! w0000000000000000000000t!!!!!!! heh heh heh X] for..*counts with fingers* friday...saturday...sunday..monday.. 4 DAYS!!!!!!!! anyways...
Have a nice day!!
<33 [[Lozz]] April 01 w00t!! CAMP WOZ FUN!!! HAHAHALMAO so much happened at camp!! [[dont think neone will read the whole lot coz too long..but if u want..go ahead!!]]
haha first on thursday i got up at like..5:15? and had brekkie etc etc n dad drove me ta skool..got there around 20 past 6...most pplz were there alreadi!! XO lolz then everyone woz laughin n takin photoz with flash, which everyone couldnt help but blink in!! XP we went on our buses..with all of my class [[8EN2]] n all of 8EN3 [[ritz, xtina, daph, a.j etc etc]] except for i think j.k n pak. yea..then stupid 1 1/2 hr of sittin in the bus...listening ta xtina'z mp3...takin photoz..laughing n tlkin..then we got ta maccas n coz im so special i got off the bus...1st!1 heh..then i bought an apple pie n hot choc at maccas...n the other buses came after us coz our bus driver woz special n we alwaiiz got everywhere earli n before everyone else =] ..kim fulli got ripped off coz she paid for a regular hot choc but she got a small...X__X
hmm..then we all went bak on our buses n we left 10 minz after everyone else coz the bus driver woz fixing the dvd player so we could watch madagascar..which i think s bray n dunlavie liked better than us...XP hmm...ritz kept laughin randomli during it..but alex me n ritz started laughin realli loud at the skeleton!!1 HAHAHAH woz sooo funni XP hmm..then it started raining realli heavily o.o
we got to questacon at liek 11:20am? n the bus driver told us that we hadta get a entry stamp on our foreheads n ritz n alex were panickin coz they thort he woz serious abot stampin there foreheads!!! HAHAH so gullible lah..ya...we got off the bus n ran inside n got a stamp ON OUR HANDS!!!!! mm..kim, gen, lindz, xtina n me stuck together as a group coz everyone else ran off to whu-noes-where..lolz we went on the..ummz forgot the name..the virtual rollercoaster thingy ya...then me, kim n lindz did the gullitine [[cant spell]] thing n it took so long ta get ta the top n when it came down i woz like.. "dum de dum..so slowwwww *starts humming* hmm...ARGHHH!!!!!" lolz then kim had a go i think n then lindz did...then we went on the freefall..kinda odd...the stuff woz so big n bulky n the blue sock thingz were kool =] n lindz or xtina..[[cant memba whu]] told me after, that the instructor dude woz like bitching in a guy way about how i didnt do sumthin properli or sumthin..meh stuff him n whu givez...XD then we went up a level to i think...the menna-sumthin lvl? dunnoz wasnt reading the sign prop..newaiiz thats the level were we took the pretti colour morphing disco-like thingyz..
n the spiral drawing place n the shadow thingy were u stand in a position n it flahses n u get ta see ur shadows on the wall!! it woz also the floor were there woz the ball speed thingy, where u chuck the ball n it calculates how many km/hr u chuck the ball at..first i got 37? or sumthin...later on i got 56 then afta like 5 more tries lindz got 58 n then 63!! X__X
lolz then we went to the random level with random stuff liek a raised platform n u walk across it n there woz a pic of like a city, makin u think u were walkin high above the city..afta that we went to the music/sound level i think? coz the earthquake one woz closed n we did heapz of stuff but cant memba much..coz it woz so long ago..hah well it woz 46 hrz appox since we went ta questacon...hmm then we looked at more stuff n finalli went down the ramp to the bottom level n the funni mirror thingy made it look like the ramp woz moving n i took a video of it with me, lindz n xtina but i cant put it on my space coz i srsli cbb. XP yea...took more pics n looked in the gift shop for the random glue//balloon thingy.. but they were sold out..
got bak on the bus...more listening to xtina mp3..more laughin n tlkin..
we arrived at the aus institute for 'mental people' haha nvm P.Joke..we went ta the aus institute of sport...so wet. so everyone woz pissed off n we hadta eat our lunch on the balcony...omg our tour guide dude had spiffeh, hot hair tho!!!!!!!! XP n ritz, daph alex n me were fulli tlkin about it..
n a tip for pplz...but probabli ya'll r smart enuf NOT to do this..never walk around with a skirt n thongz, when its raining realli heavily coz u'll freeze ta death X__X n also when u accid step in a HUGE puddle u'll be cold for a long time..=[ heh newaiiz..we saw sum freakin 6 yr olds whu were realli good at gym...saw random volleyball courts...n woz so funni...alex woz fulli like "omg..darrrrrrllling do u wanna come n sleep in myyyyy cabin?" to daph n dunlavie woz right behind her n she had this *WTF!* look on her face when she told alex to shut up..=] heh then we went into the activites section..everyoneelse woz alreadi there...on the chin up thingy i got..15.7 secondz..XD not as bad as it soundz...bardi got 1 min.. X__X but phoebe w got 0.03 XPP i vsed lindz in the rowing thingy...n she onli beat me coz i woz wearing a skirt n she had jeanz...n i got wearing thongz n she had sneakers..n also even though i took my thongz off ta do it..my feet wouldnt stay on the foot thingy so it kept hurtin my toes when i pulled bak..n my feet kept coming out of the foot place..X[ lolz..i didnt lose that bad though..=] then we did the soccer thingy n AIYA!! lindz beat my againz..onli by one goal =] but i woz better at the rockclimbing thingy XP coz i got to the last pillar n i wasnt wearing shoes once again n my feet slipped off.
then we got on the bus n saw some fugli yr 4 guyz runnin...n one fulli woz slappin his face with his arms!! i swear i woz fulli laughin at him XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD heh...but then everyone started gettin pissed off coz of the rain....
then we got ta the motel..hadta walk in the rain with our bags...ya..we got to our cabin..[[cabin #31]] hmm..then we visited #7 ya...then we went ta dinner...cbb about detailz...went to dino museum...felt sick during it..bought a small cow at the gift shop...soo cute!! tash bought a cow n a necklace..X] hmm...then liL n xtina were havin paper brochure fightz..lolz i got a video of them fightin =] then we waited liek 1 hr for a bus..got on the bus but no seats left for me n lindz so j.k, prisc n pak let me lie on their lapz n lindz woz lying on shirley, sam n wendy..then we got bak to motel.
..me n xtina went ta cabin #7 for 20 minz..then headed bak to ours..anth, bekka n some others came runnin in later coz this other freaky skool woz fulli shoutin stuff at them..then when i looked out the door, there were these 2 pplz ehh..nvm too gross ta write...hmm we had put all our junk food on the table hmm...we played 'I have..' lolz so funni XP not gonna put details coz that would be slack ta pplz...X]
mm..then xtina, maddy, sel, vera and sam went ta sleep but me, bekka, anth, ava n kat were still hyped up...so at 1:30am on fri morn..we were still awake n bekka suggested we go outside n walk around XP me n bekka went outside but ava n anth just stood in the door...n suddenli mr stanger's bathroom light//fan went on n we ran back inside n woke pplz up XP then after like that happening 3 more times..i went outside by myself n walked down towards wendy etc etc..cabin #6?? n bekka came a while afta..first we couldnt find it n when we knocked they were sleepin..so i knocked on #7 n they didnt open the door...but accordin to gen they were awake but they pretended ta be asleep coz they thort we were teachers..X__X mm then we went bak n anth had come out...we heard this liek gun shot from the other skool's cabins n one of their teachers came out n saw us trying to open the door [[pretty suspicious]] with the key but luckili we got inside n pretended we were sleepin...
we woke up at 5:30..paranoid that we wouldnt be able to pack in time for brekkie etc etc but we managed n finished at 6:15...with 45 minz left till brekkie..at like 7:45 mr stanger came round n told us he had heard bangin n the door randomli opening n closing n pplz laughin etc etc [[anth woz randomli knocking on the wall that connected mr stanger's cabin n our cabin X__X so stupid..]] so we said anth woz sleep walkin//talkin n she woz insane XD n we tried to stop her but she wouldnt stop XD XD XD XD heh..then we went ta brekkie n i took a pack of coco popz ta eat on the bus..[[the official food of..C.F.C]]
yea..we ate brekkie, went into groups for buses, took bags to bus, got on bus, went to planetariun... fell asleep during thingy coz lack of sleep...xtina woke me up when it finished, got bak on bus..
went to C.S.I.R.O...had hot choc n some of alice n alex's wedges...took photoz...got ripped off coz the wedges me, ritz n xtina bought didnt come coz we hadta leave to go on on tour...tour so boring n crap..X__X..got on bus afta stupid tour which i got a free jaffa outa of n i gave to daph..=]
had lunch..pretti crap..tlked about 'chloe' n made Chloe's Fan Club-C.F.C..told scary stories DURING THE DAY!! so nto so scary..i started laughin about the clown jugglin BALLS OF FIRE which is impossible...listened to alex's ipod n xtina's mp3...
went to geoactive museum..n MADE EARTHQUAKES!! o waot..chloe alreadi does that so we didnt havta do nething XP nyergh...got bak on bus to sydney...stopped at maccas for dinner...AGAINZ!!! then watched daddy day care n ms bray woz fulli singing...
bus arrived...i got into my mum's car n beat the traffic jam =] nyergh...went ta bed afta shower..
hav a nice daii ya'll!! =]
<33 [[Lozz]] March 21 dum de dum..hmm...*twiddles thumbs*
ish happy good? course it is.. =]
hav a nice daii ya'll [[haha kim im never saying everyone againz XP]]
<33 [[Lozz]]
P.S-to xtina..lmao true but ur my paranoid buddy so meh..=] March 12 -Not looking for sympathy etc etc, i just want to state this. Think over what i said and i hope everyone will understand and attempt to something about this problem. Most people will not read this, but those who will i hope will make a difference.
I fit into the first catergory, the 2nd, why dont i just say fit in all of them except the last one, the happy one were i should be but am not.
The last one is an image i ATTEMPT to keep up, though im struggling against a losing battle.
Something else i want add, besides the fact that nothing will make me happy, the opposite of what everyone else should be.
Why [you may ask] am i not happy? What's so wrong with my life?
Well i can answer that all for you but i hope i wont be able to stick around to explain to you my life history, my problems. I'd also liek to say that when other people are depressed etc, it not only affects the person, but it affects everyon close to them.
One day, even though it would be a miracle if this ever happened, i wish and i just hope that everyone will sit down somehow and just talk all these problemz out,.laugh them off and all make up.
Though this may not achieve much, at least everyone will have a chance to explain and actually say what they feel.
Also this would be at least a attempt for a happier world in my opinion. Anyway i think i have said too much, but this is only the beginning.
<33 [[Lozz]] March 10 ...hmm...nuthin i realli wanna saii...except ...
~to pplz whu r pissed off at someone/some people: dont get pissed off so easili...coz u'll do sumthin u'll regret later in life *..i fit in this one..*
~to pplz whu r feelin depressed n suicidal..: dont kill urself because its not the best option. u may feel like no one understandz u but srsli i bet they do...n u were born with a place in the world..to make a difference but some [[including me]] still havent found wat we're here for...but one daii u will find out..[[eheu...if u think that soudnz demented u shouldnt hav bothered ta read it in the first place]] *..and this one too..*
~to pplz whu r confused: think abotu the problem heapz n ask sum1 abotu it n let them help u...dont try ta figure something out all by urself because chances r u'll crack under the strain...just think the problem over, get a few ideas from frend ta wat they would do and dont do something ull later regret. *and this..*
~to pplz whu like someone n dont noe if they like u bak: the worst thing that could happen..is someone sayin no...but no isnt the end of the world...chances r there's someone out there u may hav met/not met n u just havta find them...=] n the best thing is that ur TAKING a chance..becuz mayb the person liekz u bak as well but doesnt want ta tell u..n thenu can live happily ever afta!!..=] X] XP lolz..but yea..just tell the person u liek them cause its better out then in..*and this..*
to pplz whu r happy n dont fit into any of the other catergories: YAY!!! go happy PPLZ =] =] =] happy is good...n contagious [[cant spell...=P]] so spread n the love n happy-ness ta every1...n be high!!!! =DDDDDDD heh heh heh..
so i guess thats all i can think of now...but i dunnoz..but newaiiz..
hav a nice daii n dont be pissed off, depressed, confused or not tell someone u liek them...BUT BE HAPPY!!!!
<33333333333333333 to all of u pplz =] =] [[Lozz]]
P.S!!!!! i'd just liek ta say THANK YOU ta everyone out there...cause i might never have the chance ta saii it...Thankz for alwaiiz being there for me, thx for being great friendz thx soooooo much for everything u've done for me since i've known u all..even though some experiances may have been bad, it all adds up ta whu i am now..=] =]
March 05 w00t!!! go vince's bdaii!!! =]hahaah got nuthin much ta say cept it woz vince's bdaii partii todaiiz!! LOLZ tlk about eventful...newaiiz cbb ta explain EVERYTHING but a few random thingyz
~while we were playin hide n seek, lindz n bren showed me iofu n ddgbdv together in vince's wardrobe closet thingy XP...they sooo should hav got a room =]
~the freakin annoyin musical candle that cath got vince n it kept singing n every1 woz like pissed off coz it just wouldnt shut up!!! X] n bren shoved it in a can but it kept goin...i shoved a fork prongy thing inside n it stopped for a while..but then when gen held it it started up againz...XP lolz evil gen.. n vince's sis kim finalli made it shut up...but every1 woz gettin haunted by it n kept sayin they could still hear it..=]...haha stupid candle..
~hahah n dylan [[vince's 6 yr old bro]] woz liek being obsessed with gen.. maybe coz a while be4 that gen woz supposed ta ask dylan out..but i askd him for her...LOLZ n he woz fulli like jumpin n harassin gen...XP lolz so funni
~n cath's random prezzie..the demented singin sumo dude XD XD XD XD XD XD XD hahahaha lLOLZ!! so random n funni...
~also dylan like sayin words liek fuck n sexy n stuff LMAO!! i think we fulli influenced him..XD =D =P =] XP X]
~n playin hide n seek woz funni as..XP
mm...cant think of nething else.. besidez the fact that lindz recknonz vince's nxt door neighbour is hot..XP hahaha lindz is so shallow..hmm...newaiiz..nuthin else ta write...!!
[[Lozz]]
P.S added sum photoz fromcath's cam..including the destiny's child one..XP LMAO =] February 19 aww..how cute..=Paww [[took the idea from bethie]] these pets r cute.. =] play with george, fred n bob!! XD =D =P =]
   heh..they're so cute..=] February 15 GO GARVIN!! CAMPBELL SUCKZ!! =P =]LOLZ cant wait till swimming carn tomoz..GARVIN IS SOOO GONNA BEAT STUPID CAMPBELL!!!! DOWN WITH CAMPBELL!!!! heh...im so mean..=P lolz btw to all those garvins, macquaries n moore out there.. I GOT BLUE, GREEN N YELLOW ZINC!!!! HAH!! take that campbell!!! lolz...
BTW- if any1 reads this be4 swimmin canr day...we're noit doin dreamies as most of u SHOULD noe by now...we're goin straight to capital for stickiez!! =P n whueva wantz...meet 8:10am at bus stop tomoz...=D
[[~~-[[6:43pm, Thursday 16th February 2006]]~~- p.s...added photoz from the swimmin carn!! btu cbb to scan stickiez...n the "POP! =)" one's the best i rckn...=P =] ]] |
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